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16 August 2008 @ 07:44 pm
Fic: Kaleidoscope. Hisagi/Kira.  
I lost the original Kaleidoscope in a moment of carelessness that will scar me for the rest of my life and try as I might, I just can't write it as well. So forgive me if this is all a little...lame...T_T But I made a banner to make up for it? ENJOY!

These two boys were originally blended together by the lovely, lovely ceestar

Rating: PG
Pairing: Hisagi Shuuhei x Kira Izuru
Notes/Warnings: Written using the 1st POV. A contest entry for shuukira's anniversary contest. Theme #31: Watch at 50scenes and Theme #2: Jealousy at 7snogs.
Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach or any of its sexy characters. I just borrow them and make them do my nasty bidding. They like it. A lot. >:)

He knows I watch him.

He revels in it.

My Kira, all a swirl of black, gold and the tiniest specks of blue.

Tonight the ballroom is an eddy of light and sound, a whirlwind of changing colours, filled with familiar faces that smile as we enter. He can’t resist. He slips away from me the moment he finishes his first drink, disappearing into the dance floor and leaving me to stand and watch him from afar.

And I do. I watch him dance; first with Rangiku, then Iba, Renji, Ikkaku—everyone. I watch him dance with them all, his hands on the waist of the women and the shoulders of men, gliding across the dance floor in time with the music or even more beautifully, against it. Who knew he could dance so well?

I did.

I always did.

And I know how it feels to hold him close, to breathe in his sweet scent—how it makes you hold him all the more tightly against you if only to keep from falling—to look in his eyes and feel like you’re the only in the world who matters to him when really, it’s the other way around.

My Kira. The lights, dim now to fit the mood, reflect off his sweat-dampened skin; the soft amber light making him glow. Ikkaku rests his cheek on that blond hair, trying to catch his breath and whispering words I probably don’t want to hear. Kira only smiles and lets him, seemingly content to be held in the arms of the man who probably still loves him as much as I do. He slips away from Ikkaku like sand through his fingers.

Momo calls to him next and he obliges, holding her against him like a lover, her hands on his chest and his arms over, dancing slowly and talking quietly while Hitsugaya-taichou watches with a look that probably mirrors mine. They dance in small circles, the lights seeming to follow them where they went. I wait until he lets her go, wait until Hitsugaya-taichou looks away, before I set my drink down and step into the dance floor with barely controlled eagerness I can’t explain.

The lights change again and the music slows. He is suddenly alone, watching me approach with a gentle, knowing smile on his perfect face. His shirt hangs unbuttoned and open down to his chest, the necklace I gave him so long ago still perfectly on the center of that expanse of soft skin.


Tension I didn’t even know I had melts from my shoulders as I slowly walk toward him, my eyes never leaving his. I reach for him and easily pull him towards me, up against me and into my arms and for the first time this evening he laughs, a delicate peal of laughter that drowns out the music in the background.

We dance slowly, slower than he danced with Momo and closer together than he was with Ikkaku, my hands on the small of his back and his fingers playing with my tie and hair. Jealous glares follow our every move and whispers grow loud from the shadows the light can’t reach. I suppress the urge to laugh.

In my arms Kira is oblivious as he sways smoothly in time with the music, leading me across the dance floor, forever the better dancer but making it look as if I’m in charge.

I break his rhythm, making him stop, and as he opens his mouth to ask me why I lean in and press my lips to his.

His lips are sweet with the taste of the champagne I poured for him earlier, the only drink he’s had tonight. Our kiss lasts only for a moment, the briefest of instants. It’s enough. In the background I hear someone gasp.

Sometimes a moment is all it takes.

When I draw back Kira is smiling and I’m sure I am grinning like a fool. His eyes gleam a bright sapphire blue with a look that tells me he knows what I’m playing at. Of course he does. He’s playing, too.

Over his shoulder I see Ikkaku staring at us and Momo blushing and looking away to the side.

Poor Momo. She had no idea.

Guilt is written clear on both of their faces but I only grin some more.

Kira can dance with them for decades to come but in the end he goes home with only one person.

In the end, he goes home with me.

“Jealous much, Shuu?” he whispers softly in my ear, bringing my attention back to him. His face is bright red but I can hear the laughter in his voice. I lean down and kiss him again, harder this time, breathing him in and pulling away only when I have to catch him as his knees give out.

I laugh and hold him close.

“Not at all,” I say.

I have no reason to be.



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x-posted: 50scenes, 7snogs, all_for_bleach, asterisk_plus, bleach_yaoi, kurosaki_clinic and shuukira.
shiawase_ai on August 16th, 2008 12:15 pm (UTC)
Eeeeeee!! Okay, first off, I'm sorry about your USB, and I know how you feel, since I lost one of mine sometime ago too. But even though you lost the original story, I think this made up for it. ^^
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:24 am (UTC)
Yes, it is a horrible feeling. :( But I'm pretty much over it.

I'm glad you think so! I pretty much botched the entire thing up so it means a lot to me that you still like it! ♥

Thank you for reading and commenting!
calm_isolation on August 16th, 2008 12:30 pm (UTC)

*tackles and hugs* simply amazing and beautiful and I know you had to re-write it with the loss of your flash drive and i am sure it is different what you had at first but it is simply perfect
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:25 am (UTC)

Surely you jest! T_T

Well, I did try my best so I am glad it worked for you! Thank you so much for the lovely comment! I ♥ you!!!! <3
ceestarceestar on August 16th, 2008 01:02 pm (UTC)
Bub-ahbuw-sjaje--random keyboard bashings-

I AM BLUSHIMG! OH. MY. GOD. YOU HAVE OUT DONE YOURSELF! Buuh I don't know what it was, ah the tenderness of their dance together? The way Shuu watched and studied Izuru's every move? The fact that two very attractive men stood in each others arms, in suits and kissed?! Antha that was stunning, my cheeks are literally tingling and I can barely catch my breath!

It was just so irresitably sweet my teeth are about to fall out, seriously! I can feel it! My breath is short and my heart is pounding!! I don't know what else to say, but buuuuhhh you get the idea right???

Oooh and again I'm sorry about your USB, but THIS was the "less awesome" version?! Yikes...
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:28 am (UTC)

Oh, Cee, you are adorable. ♥ I am glad it gave you that reaction! That is seriously awesome and my fic made you feel all that? AWESOME!

And yeah this was the "less awesome" version because two weeks of effort cannot be done in one night. So thank you so much for the lovely awesome as hell comment! I am SO glad you like it! YOU ARE TOO KIND!!!!! T_T I ♥ you to no end!
Silver Harmony: Mayurisilverharmony on August 16th, 2008 01:42 pm (UTC)
Really lovely introspective fic (as usual, Antha!). And I love the ending. I'm just sorry to hear that you had to write that all over again o_o
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:29 am (UTC)
Lol yeah, that's what I get for being such as careless turd. XD

Thank you, I'm glad you think so! Thank you for reading and commenting! ♥
erinilliana on August 16th, 2008 03:39 pm (UTC)
This was incredible. ♥

The style you wrote it in flowed very well. Your choice of words and how you executed them is superb. You can just see the image of everything that's happen so clearly.

I admit that my favorite part was the whole dancing scenario. The details and how Shuuhei observed Izuru were beautiful. Everyone needs someone like Izuru to dance with some time in their life, haha.

It's a shame you had to rewrite it. This is amazing as it though, so the original must have been great. You did it justice either way.
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:32 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm glad you think so. I worked so hard on this (took me two weeks, damn it) but I lost the original file when i lost my flashdrive so I just whipped this up from memory. A lot of the details were lost but I am glad you liked it all the same.

And yes, such an intimate and lovely scene with these two. Had I been in the same dance floor, I would've dragged them both home with me. XD

Thank you so much for reading and commenting! ♥
SZP.: Bleach ›› Shuuuuuhei.barukode on August 16th, 2008 04:33 pm (UTC)

Your words are a dance that glide as a perfect couple across the ballroom of my senses.
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:33 am (UTC)
That is just about the best compliment I have ever received about my writing. Ever!

Thank you! ♥
Mei Meiletainajup on August 16th, 2008 04:57 pm (UTC)
OOooo first off I like the pic you used by [info]ceestar for the story and then having it being from Hisagi's POV is just beautifully done!:D

OMG the way he watched Kira dance on the floor with everyone like Ikkaku and Momo (I thought it was cute that also Hitsugaya was also jealous/watching) >D but the ending was the best! WOOHOO Hisagi going in for the kill and knowing he is his in the end - just excellent!
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:34 am (UTC)
Lol. Yeah, I had fun making that banner. ^^

And isn't possessive!shuu just the bestest thing ever?! XD

Thank you for reading and commenting! ♥
My sky. My limit.: Gacktsphinxofthenile on August 16th, 2008 06:23 pm (UTC)
Awwww, that was so sweet and extremely well-written!
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:35 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm glad you think so! ♥
Ruyu: *FLAIL*ruyu on August 17th, 2008 03:44 am (UTC)
That was beautiful! (*_*) I like how observant and patient Shuuhei was while Kira danced. The anticipation of them dancing together was wonderful and slightly flirty. Excellent writing!
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:35 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm glad you think so! ♥
saffronloversaffronlover on August 17th, 2008 04:33 am (UTC)
You described the moment in time soo well..I loved seeing everything from Shuu's perspective & how Kira was not too uke.
Very tender and sweet. Thankyouu xoxo
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 07:36 am (UTC)
I'm glad you think so! ♥ Thank you for reading and commenting!
chibi_zoe on August 17th, 2008 09:36 am (UTC)
This is so sweet! I like the slow way that it flows, the way that Shuuhei follows Kira through the dances, and the kiss at the end ... XD
Anthaantha_aryn on August 17th, 2008 02:51 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you do! ♥

Thank you for reading and commenting! <3
Have Fun Storming the Castle!: Shuuheiannieroo2 on August 22nd, 2008 03:33 am (UTC)
A lovely and very voyeuristic read. I felt like was watching and swaying to the music through the whole piece.

I felt especially connected to this line -
"In my arms Kira is oblivious as he sways smoothly in time with the music, leading me across the dance floor, forever the better dancer but making it look as if I’m in charge."

I think it perfectly showcases a balanced and loving relationship and I really love that the best.

I'm so sorry you lost the first version of this story, but I have to say that I never would have guessed this was a rewrite. It was so heartfelt.

Anthaantha_aryn on August 23rd, 2008 12:27 pm (UTC)
Ahhhh to have either of these boys in my arms, dancing... ::melts::

"Voyeuristic"? That's a nice way to look at this. I like that! 8D

And really? I'm so glad you think so! I was so worried this was made of fail. Thank you for reading and commenting! You're a dear! ♥
animationgrlanimationgrl on August 29th, 2008 09:22 am (UTC)
Oh, my God! What are you talking about? This fic is SO not lame! IT IS MADE OF WIN!!! Once I was almost at the halfway point, I was just smiling like an idiot for the rest of the fic. Oh, the part about them dancing, and Kira playing with Hisagi's tie and hair - SEX! Kira, you playboy! Haha!

And, oh man, I'm sorry, but Ikkaku/Kira does not make sense to me. But then, I'm not exactly up to speed with the manga, as I read only what I buy (vol. 20, last book purchased). I'm curious to see how it does, now, though!
Antha: Insatiable!Shuuantha_aryn on August 29th, 2008 02:37 pm (UTC)
You really think so? THANK YOU! Yes, I was going for sensual here, I couldn't get to the sex outright because that would've ruined it!

And Ikkaku/Kira? It's the fact that they're so opposite that makes it a great read. That and Ikkaku is always entertaining. XD And curious are you? Then I bring you IkkaKira love!!!!! 8D Enjoy!

Minor Conspiracies by thehoyden
Red For Luck by thehoyden

peroxide_fic has an entire series of the pairing as well as others so if you find that you like the pairing you can always check those out.

Anyway! Back to me! Thank you so much for reading and commenting! ♥